September 10, 2006 @12:46 AM
i am in absolutely no mood to watch soccer tonight. not because liverpool lost.
jm, we'll be here for each other yea?
i kinda know what the answer will be, but i know, i must hear it with my own ears.
because, even then, im not sure if i will be able to forget.
i get depressed when night falls.
simply because, i know why.
i have the solution to the problem.
but. the reality of the harsh truth deters me from seeking it.
im afraid of what the truth may be, or what i may project it to be.
i feel so frustrated. i feel so confused.
i dont get it.
i know what i want.
now that i've got the opportunity,
i want to treasure it. but im afraid to lose everything of it forever.
i dont know which is harder.
accepting the sordid truth after so long, or losing everything i ever looked forward to.
my mind is a whirlpool.
i cant contain it for much longer.
i know i cant. its demolishing me into pieces through this painstaking process, that even a lifetime's too short for its completion..
i wonder why God made life so hard? why cant everything end happily ever after?
what is his purpose? i just wonder.
my head's spinning. im going to rest.
i lost my appetite. i've lost my motivation. i've lost interest in things that meant alot to me.
i cant do anything without thoughts popping and hogging my mind.
i feel so drained. i feel so.
so.
its going to be monday. =((((
sighs.
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jm,
iguessbestpalssharethesamehappinessandwoes.
icanfullyunderstandhowyou'refeelingrightnow.
butstaystrong.iwilltrytotoo.
jiayou.iknowitwontbeeasy,butiknowneitheroneofuswillbegoingthroughthisalone...
ithinkthatwegottothankGodfor?=)
