September 04, 2006 @9:51 PM
hmms. sometimes i feel so embarassed. so embarassed at the fact that the people closest to me dont even trust me. and its not as if i've not earned your trust, or wadever. in fact, amongst the three, i think i've put the most credibility to my name..
sighs, it was during lunch. that was the time that totally destroyed my mood for the rest of the day. i could feel my eyes burning infront of like the whole table of friends. i kept my glance away from the table.. my heart really panged with pain.. sighs. i just feel so little and insignificant. just so inadequate. at the age of 19, i cant even make simple decisions that i AM capable of. i think i've studied enough to be wary of the various charactics of these MMI. sighs. i wish i could run as far as i could, to someplace where no one would find me to cry. seriously, i hate dealing with unnecessary stress like this..
WHY? sighs. ARGH. for once? maybe when its time you let me grow up, is when u have no choice. i hope that isnt too late.....
⥠you and i both loved
