August 09, 2006 @4:15 PM
i feel so darn irritated. sighs. i am not at peace with alot of things. i feel irritated with everything. i need to kill the source, where all these come from. because its eating my life away. and i am so darn irritated. so annoyed and troubled that i cant eat, sleep of concentrate well. sighs. sometimes, i dont know why, i am so so so dumb and stupid. foolish isnt even close to what i am. i'd rather cut myself with a fking razor then say .... what the hell am i thinking? its my life, but i act as if i am a saint in the making. and now i know i am not. because, im jus. so messed up. im angry upset and irritated with myself. i've fking let myself down, time and time again i dont really know how to explain it to myself anymore. i'm getting used to the fact that this is what i am. sigh. arghargh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
please dont sayanything. because i wish to die. i'm living a fate worse then death, its neither here nor there. argh. ineedpoision.
⥠you and i both loved
