August 27, 2006 @10:20 PM
hmm. i suddenly feel so so so nervous! argh. tomorrow's the start of my attatchment.. its FINALLY starting. and i am feeling so nervous! damn!
i worry too much, and i cant help it! im worried i will dress wrongly, i'm worried that the people there may not like me, im worried that i get thrown into the middle of office politics, and the thing i am afraid off is not being able to do my work well because i dont know how to do them.. argh.. im quite afraid la.. ya lor.. so sian.. damn.. im so stressed out even before i start work.. sighs... =(
i dont know how to say this, but i kinda wished that i was in a different situation from what i am in now.. i feel too independent too soon.. like i've just got thrown onto the street with a little bit of money and food.. i've got no where to go and no one to go home too.. (i am not talking about my family)
life sucks when its aimless! it sucks when you've got no one to share it with. it also sucks when you feel overwhelming insecurity and uncertainty..ugh. i hate that feeling. i so super hate that feeling..
sighs..
- you have to have faith, before you can understand anything.
⥠you and i both loved
