August 07, 2006 @9:28 PM
being not in a good mood and listening to sad/depressing songs will not make you feel better either. as a matter of fact, it makes you feel more shitty. my playlist's named as : for the sian mood. haha. how ridiculous can i get?? and 2 songs i've been listening to for like a million times the whole evening are : hopelessly devoted to you by olivia newton john, and i think i by buyl.
i guess it ruffled my feathers. i thought that i'd got over it a few weeks ago. i feel so mixed up inside. i cant feel happy neither do i want to feel sad. i dont know what to expect. in fact i dont expect anything. i cant and .... urgh. damn. i cant articulate this to anyone or anything. i cant even get it out of my system. i feel like getting really drunk and jumping off a building. for once, i cant get a tear out of my tear duct. it stays in there refusing to well up and fall off my cheek.
argh. please. i neeed to concentrate. but untill now, nothing has been accomplished. and i feel so idiotic. and screwed up. ad;slkfa;iohan;lkvnas;lfjsiorjejsalkdjfiwejlksdlknsfahsf;klsassa. fcuk.
⥠you and i both loved
