June 25, 2006 @1:14 AM
sian. i feel so bloody incompetent. i cant handle stress well now. fcuk. in secondary school, throw me a million things and i'd be more than happy to do complete them, and within the time frame somemore.. now.. everything's such a chore..
i cant accept the fact that my ability to handle stress and problems have declined so much.. i'm no longer motivated like i used to be.. my source of motivation has gone.... long gone. disappeared the moment i stepped out of the school.
i miss that kind of one for all spirit.. the closeness we all shared.. camping over at weiling house cos got camp the next day.. chatting with jiaming on the phone everyday.. sneaking out of class to gossip with dolores and vanessa.. going ever so often to the toilet with jiaming.. drill sessions that were conducted.. and saturday drill sessions.. haha.. it was scary being the drill i/c.. but in the end, it always had a greater purpose... and of course GB meetings on saturday.. sometimes combined activities with the BB.. and most of all.. the after parade bonding time.. the guitars, the happy laughter and loads of learning points..... the GB/BB room.. our hideout.. our secret inventory to stash heavy textbooks and stuff we didnt wana bring home.. the place where we'd have meetings/ mediation sessions.. quarrels and other funny times.. it brings back a flash flood of memories.. too many.. happy and sad.. sweet and bitter.. i'll always remember the times where we all will pretend to go to the GB room to get stuff.. but in fact.. it was to sneak peaks at ............... HAHA...... (its still a secret) up till today.. i still find secondary school life the best.. =) how i miss those days.. really miss those wonderful days where everything would be a matter of life and death.. hahas how we'd always make a mountain out of a molehill.. fun fun fun.. how we wrote letters to each other.. ( i recently found one big stash in my cupoard) hahas.. and in class where we would secretly use our h/p and discmans during mrs hsu's lesson.. remember me and aloy got a warning from the VP.. HAHA.. how we cheated during chinese tests physics tests and er.. i think maths test.. formulas all over the table!!! shou ce under desk.. haha .. then tian xie han zi all full marks.. zzz.. so many more.. but i've got to get back to my MA.. i'm going to finish it by tonight..
secondary school days... i miss you! =(
⥠you and i both loved
