i didnt want get out of bed this morning. i had the super sick feeling in my stomach. the feeling was just so disgusting and depressing. untill now, the feeling is still in me, and has unsurprisingly worsened. sigh. i'm holding my tears back cos i dont want anyone to worry. but i cant force a single smile out of me either.

i just printed some notes. it really made me feel even worse. seriously. nothing anyone does will make me feel better. i know i'm not supposed to quit and give up halfway. i guess i now understand why students jump to death from the top of buildings. i understand that feeling of failure and not being able to accept it. living with it everyday is a fate worse than death. i would if i could. but im not brave enough to stand 12 stories above the ground and look to my death. ABSOLUTELY nothing is making me feel better.

i push and force myself to try to think of the positive things. but my fucking pride and ego just wont let me do it. i cant even face myself. how am i supposed to face the world? "You all" say believe in god. i did. i tried. but it was just all in vain. i just feel so so so so so ... its ... :((

i dont care anymore. i dont care if u think im a fucking wet blanket. im just really sore from the fact that people who were just lucky passed that cursed module and i didnt. ok. i cant accept it. when people whom i think are academically worse then me can pass and i cant. argh. i dun care if people think im just a sore loser. maybe thats what i am now. but before u say anything. think im my pespective. argh.

i just feel so screwed for life. god=***

someone pls kill me. put poision in my tea or something. i just wana die.

♥ you and i both loved

amelia

aquarius/capricon. 9teen. NP acc yr 3.


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