February 17, 2006 @11:03 PM
i now know why life i a joke.
simply. one moment i am laughing happily.
the next moment. my rawest nerve in my heart is nailed.
im blown got and cold.
everyone says things will get better. but will they?
im sick of this life.
hai. why am i e bloody jinxed one to be so suay?? why me?
my past life???
what the fuck did i do to deserve such a fucking shit life??
all i ever wanted was for my results to be alright.
i seriously duno how long more can i take.
the feeling buried deep in my heart.
mayb i shld have gone to 3 yr pre u?
im takin up one valuable seat in acc. where someone else
who mayb be more worthy of compared to me.
sighs. reali. wo shi zhou tou wu lu.
i got 2 faces. the happy and e sad one.
i reali dun wish people to take pity on me.
cos im not pityful.
im jus screwed up big time.
there's no one there when i need someone.
perhaps, only my shadow.
my shadow's my best frend.
it walks along beside me. but it jus refuses to say anything.
hai..
exams are coming .
thats all i need to say. fill in the rest urself.
my life's crumblimg apart.
i duno why im holding dust of what used to be a stone structure..
i duno why im stil hoping for things
that arent going to happen, happen.
im just a stubborn girl.
so stubborn.
even if u told me there were glass on e road.
i'll still take that path. barefooted.
i reali wana ask why. why why i am like that. seriously.
someone . drag me to a councillor.
i need a pshychatrist.
(i dun even freakin know how to spell e bloody world)
fuck.
hai.
great.
"elgnis"
"u deserted me ."someone. take me away. to a faraway land.i dun wana live anymore.
⥠you and i both loved
